The path I am walking is a new one, and with new paths comes plenty of twigs and branches that must be cleared, and forest floors that need sweeping. It is exhausting and tedious at times, constantly questioning if all of this work is worth it when I will just have to wake up tomorrow and start all over again. Sometimes in times of struggle, I look for the closest exit sign and I run to it. Ignoring the obvious…
Here in Pennsylvania we are in the throes of an incredibly early spring. For me, it feels both welcomed and alarming. The mix of clear sunlight and crisp air brings with it an awakening on many levels. But almost as if I have been forced out of hibernation, there are parts of me that feel like they need a bit more sleep. Those parts are mainly my upper arms and my mid-section. You see, with sunlight comes shadows, and the…
Ready to have you mind blown?? Don’t say I didn’t warn you. The truth that I’m about to drop is going to change the way you see the world… Being a parent is really fucking hard! So much truth, so many layers, so much awareness that I am still so god damn new at this and one day I will look back and grin at my adorable ignorance. But I also know that this is real for me right now,…
So I wanted to share with you guys, what I did last weekend. I, for the first time ever in my entire life went away completely by myself. Like totally alone, to a place I hadn’t been before, had to make my own reservations and everything. (I’ll wait for the applause to subside…) I know right!? What a brave, inspiring woman I am. Now, you are probably thinking, ok give me ALL the details, walk us through every solo step…
You’re welcome! For I know that after reading that title, you have now stepped into a brand new understanding of how life works. But seriously though, how annoying is it, when a saying that you have heard 50 thousand times over the span of your life, finally fucking clicks!? Like, OHH THAAAAAT’S WHAT THAT SHIT MEANT?! Let me tell you, as true as this is for me in this moment, I am aware enough to…
When anyone asks me how Motherhood is going; my answer is always “amazing, so so incredible!”. That is my answer because I genuinely mean it. This is unequivocally the most beautiful time in my life to date. However, if I were to think about it day by day, moment by moment, it’s not always so great. I mean lets me honest this shit can be really stressful. Considering the fact that, for the first two months of Ellie’s she would…
As I sit here in my living room, typing on the same keyboard, sitting on the same couch, with the same dog glued to my hip, it is amazing to me all that has remained the same during a time in my life where everything is so incredibly different. It was a month and 9 days ago that I gave birth to my greatest teacher, a month and 9 days ago when the world stopped on its axis as I…