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Honesty

Body Image Breakdown

September 6, 2019

This past Sunday, I stayed home. I could have been at the Labor Day pool party at my cousin’s house; a party that I had been looking forward to for weeks, but instead I chose to stay on my couch, and I’m pretty sure it was the best decision I have made in years. I honestly believe, that choice to stay home, will be the choice that I reflect on when I want to remember what it feels like to…

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Dear Beth at Trader Joe’s…

August 19, 2019

Dear Beth at Trader Joe’s, I am writing you this letter to say thank you… for the 89th time. I know that I repeatedly apologized and thanked you in the parking lot today, when the groceries you were helping me load into my van spilled out into the parking lot, but I just wanted to be sure that you really understood just how thankful I am. What you saw, were containers of produce scattered on the pavement, but what wasn’t…

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On October 3rd, I wear my trauma

October 12, 2018

I remember the weather that day, it was warm and overcast and drizzling. The sky was a muddy shade of gray from the time the sun came up. My stomach felt hollow and I had to remind myself to take deep breaths all day to keep myself from passing out. I wandered around the house aimlessly, convinced I was going to lose my fucking mind before I had to leave for this appointment. Mike was going to meet me there.…

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Free your mind…

August 4, 2018

Freedom. One word, 7 letters; found in never-ending stories, all of them powerful. Before February 29, 2015, I would have attached this word to the powerful stories I knew from history– slavery, civil rights, the list goes on and on. I learned about the struggle and the bravery that is attached to this word through those stories because I hadn’t known my own, or so I thought. I don’t think I knew of my own need for freedom because I…

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